11.17.2014

6th week on Ängsbacka

Here I am.
6 weeks into this Ängsbacka community life. 
I keep drawing the Tarot card of "The Moon"
I'm facing divine creatures and demons. 
Much magic and much chaos surrounds me.
Most of all, my head is spinning with reflections of all shapes and sorts. 
A tiny existential crisis is knocking on my door, yet again.
These last few months... Oh sweet mother of all things good....  
Everything is being put to a test.
In a subtle and quiet way.
 
It feels like an ultimate challenge for my identity.
I recently participated in a tantra workshop, that left me exhausted and feeling physically ill in my entire body. Mostly throat.  
I'm so incredibly grateful to be in a space where people care for each other and nurture each other.
People are attentive and receptive when I share my feelings and my needs. 
I this way, I feel held and supported.
There is some sense of subtle doom these days of my life.
It's quite funny in a way, because there is nothing to do.
Something within me is shifting, and I'm going with it, without knowing what it is.

Salute!





10.29.2014

2nd week on Ängsbacka


It's now been two weeks since I found myself standing on Swedish earth, yet again. 
Ängsbacka is gently changing it's colors. Shedding it's skin and becoming naked in front of my eyes. 
The trees are sighing off all their leafs. One by one, every hour.
The air here is crisp and the wind is beginning to bite.
This is a magical and beautiful time for me. 
I'm growing closer and closer to the people here every day, and I have a creeping feeling of wanting to stay here forever. 
I might be wearing rose colored glasses, but I am liking it.
Currently my intention is to stay for quite a while.
I'm trying to create an agreement with the management, to be able to commit for a year or so. 
They are being very loving and empathic about it.
This excites me.

I also have thought about gathering sketches for a potential portfolio for an Art Academy application.
I feel confident in the illustrations I'm working on at the moment.
Feeling like everything is possible.

The kitchen/cleaning work I'm doing here, is easy to do in a meditative, conscious way.
There is a lot of laughter and warmth.
I'm enjoying it. A lot.
I wouldn't have thought I would be saying that I actually enjoy cleaning work, but I really do.

I also enjoy playfighting, sweeping floors, dancing, singing, doing yoga, forest walking, autumn bathing in the lake, talking gibberish, learning Swedish, kissing, hugging, meditating, discussing, chopping vegetables, holding hands, breathing.

Currently ife is easy and light.

Much love.

10.18.2014

3rd day at Ängsbacka

I'm back in Sweden, back at Ängsbacka.
No pictures the comming days. 
Sold my computer. currently borrowing the old PC at Ängsbacka. 
My world is really light and happy.
Ängsbacka is beautiful and embracing. 
Intimate and warm.
I'm mostly in the kitchen helping the chefs.
There is currently a Shamanic Dearmouring workshop going on.
15 participants.
Outside a myriad of green, yellow, ocre and red colors.
The wind is fresh and the water is sweet tasting and clean.
I twisted my ancle yesterday jumping around in the forest alone.
I'm walking around like child learning to walk for the first time.  
Because of this I'm sore in my entire body, but I still have a sense of gratitude for the physical gesture. 
It wants to get a message across.
We had a sauna yesterday which was amazing. 
Sweating out, steaming and cold showering. Autumn body clean out!

I'm surrounded by loving people who has welcomed back into their arms.
This is feels like an amazing magical time

For now, I'm home.

10.14.2014

5th day in denmark.

Great album! take the time if you want to escape into softness and magic tales for a little while… 

Okay… FULL STEAM AHEAD!
The day after tomorrow I turn my nose towards Sweden, to one of my many homes…Ængsbacka. 

Time to grow ---->  ^ this way ^ 
Up, up and away


10.13.2014

Today I had an unexpected visitor

*Riiing Riiing*

"Yes, who's there?"

"Hello Nanna… This is quiet existential crisis"

"Oh… Hello quiet existential crisis… I wasn't expecting you. Could you speak a bit louder please?"

"Yeah… Sorry to barge in on you like that, but… I don't know, you know… Please... attend to me
 or something."

"Of course my friend, I'll do my very best !"





"Better?"

"Yeah… I don't really know…"

"Let's sleep on it shall we?"

"Hmm ok… See you tomorrow"

"Okay, Nighty night"


10.12.2014

3rd day in denmark.


Now, I am back. 
I've returned. 
To denmark.
I'm reunited with my past, that is. 

This sucker on the photo is what ticked me to seriously consider going back to Denmark from Italy. 
Working one morning, splitting wood, I was joking around on the logs and I fell on a big piece of hard wood. and this happened. 

The pain has ceased now, and nothing serious or permanent has happened. No broken limbs! 
but considering what was happening around me, in my life. This little injury was perfect!

It made me reflect upon what state of mind I was in. 
I was constantly wanting to go to remote places, into nature,
into peace and solitude. 
I was "beating myself up" for not wanting to go on with my expected road down trough Italy.
But...
I had enough of wandering about, getting up early, working the crops in the fields, being exhausted spiritually, because of the need to digest all my experiences. 
I was TIRED.
So many life altering realizations has come to me in the last 3 months. Peace and and a little detachment  
will be just what I need.
I had, had dreams of going back to my mother in Denmark, and be with her for a while until going back to ängsbacka this winter.
So.

Here I am. 
The only place I thought I would NOT find myself, 3 months ago, and I love it. 
It's also tough. But certainly the right place for now. 
Being here with my mother and my brothers are best thing for me currently. 
 What a gift to be able to come back and find a loving home waiting. 

So I thank the injury for showing me, that listening to my need for safety and peace is important now.

 Now they are shouting me down for nut cake. :-) 
I thank the higher source within myself and the universe for this family and this piece of land. 

10.08.2014

Goodbye Damanhur!


Goodbye to the beautiful mountains of Damjl, The beautiful family of Prima Stalla, and Damanhur.

Guess where I'm going now :-)
It's cold and familiar...

Tip for great traveling literature: "The transformational imperative" by Shunyamurti

10.06.2014

Pictures made in Damanhur - in progress








5th day at Damanhur


5th day at Damanhur
Trying to find a sense of peace in this astrological cocktail of a fire trine in the sky. 
It's not particularly easy.
A lovely damanhurian gave me a prana healing today with a damanhurian selfica instrument.
Still crying, feeling sensitive, being here is triggering me, mucho mucho.
I need peace. I need time to be able to paint and be me, with myself.

Therefore I am heading to a very special place the day after tomorrow...

10.05.2014

day 4 at Damanhur



I saw the temples of humankind, and Damjl, the heart of Damanhur yesterday.
I'm feeling overwhelmed, sensitive.
randomly bursting into tears now and again.
I crave peace and solitude. 
I would like to be able to be process my experiences in solitude.
But this is a string of interesting challenges that needs attention.
Tomorrow I have a day off, and I have an appointment with the Damanhurian doctors office to make sure I'm not bringing anything contaminating into the community. 
It's standard procedure. 
After I would like to walk the sacred forests near the temples. 
considering going to a remote place for a month after this experience at Damanhur, to paint, contemplate and be in complete peace. 
It would be nice before going back to volunteer for ängsbacka this winter. 



10.03.2014

Day 3 at Damanhur


Day 3 at Damanhur

Slowly being introduced to the ways of Damanhur.
Italian speaking people.
Beautiful mountains and nature.
Vine grape picking in the hot Italian sun. 
Espresso, white bread, cheese. 
Italian locals who wants to adopt me.
Beautiful meetings.
Organic vegetable fields.
Painting.
Many new ideas and meetings with people who moves me. 


Getting to Italy.



Hitchhike trough Germany was smooth, Switzerland and the alps by train was breathtakingly beautiful. Italy as well. 
Extremely cold to sleep at the train station in Basel.
Felt very alone and overwhelmed by the whole world.
Comming from the beautiful nature in Eiserfey  to the various big cities down trough Switzerland was tough. The air was suffocating, and the people in the streets at night where challenging my sense of ease and peace.

Arriving to Damanhur was a hassle. 
It's inconvenient and a bit of an adventure to not speak a word of Italien. 

The first guy to pick me up near Eiserfey, was really kind and helpful. He drove me some extra miles and dropped me off close to a political occupied forest. The people living there was protecting the forest from being exploited by a company digging for coal, chopping down the trees. Very interesting to see and to connect with the people there. 
When I left the place, I got lost in the beautiful forest, it was perfectly wonderful!
but eventually ended up on the main road, where I was picked up by a sweet guy and his italian mother and taken to the nearest train station.
In the end it was an interesting challenge with all the sense of separation and duality.

9.30.2014

It's time to love.


It's time to love.
Libra is in focus. 
Commit to grow in unison with one another. 

Last night in germany


43 days in Germany. And here I am. 
Last night in Germany.

I'm feeling… I don't know. 
New.

Tomorrow morning I'm gonna hitchhike to Italy. 
This weekend has been beautiful.
Filled with challenges, new ways of thinking.
I've been reconnecting with mother Gaia.
Laying naked in the grass fields of nettles and dandelions.
I made this drawing after the ayahuasca this Friday.
It's not done yet, and the photo is bad quality, but you get the idea…


Now. I'll spend the night in the yurt.
Get on the road tomorrow, and hope for the best.
All good vibes sent from your hearts to me, right now is a blessing. 
I'm feeling scared, excited and in awe of the possibilities and the unknown territory I'm invading. 
I have chosen to just GO tomorrow, not knowing where I'm gonna end up. 
Destination is Damanhur in Italy.
But how to get there is beyond me. 
No particular place to end up in the night.
But I trust life.

This is truly going towards Hinterland. 

But… I got my thumb.
I got my water.
I got my coat, 
and I got my heart and my brain. 

Ciao for now.


9.28.2014

Day after 3. time ayahuasca


Loved brothers and sisters. 
I'm in a period of what they in germany call zweifel.
Doubt. 
I know where it comes from.
A sense of grounding has gone missing, and I don't know where I left it. 
I've been looking all over for it. 
The harder I look at my self, the more I panic. 
It's because I'm looking with a mind that operates on memories of pain and pleasure.
I want to be the best I can be, for others, and myself, and my future.

Jesus, mary, krishna, Jehova, Ganesha, Buddah, Allah Help me. 

The best healing for me at the moment is silence.


9.27.2014

Aloha ke akua


After hearing this at the ayahuasca ceremonies, I'm trying to learn it. Beautiful.

9.25.2014

ayahuasca song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i6DUoi4EUFA

Day 38 in Germany


Day 38 in Germany. 

Sitting in the violin workshop, still.
Unexpected events has been occurring. Again.

I'm learning very important lessons of patience and trust.

Vivid colorful dreams of confusion. 
I have not left germany yet, as I expected myself to. 
I was called to join yet another Ayahuasca ceremony this friday, so I decided to stay and participate. 
Tuesday I will go to Italy. Finally. Until then, I remain in this beautiful nature.
Laundry folding and water fasting.



I feel really good. Cleaning out in my body still.
I'm so grateful for having clean spring water to drink.
Theres is a good atmosphere with the volunteers at the moment.
A motivated and cheerful couple that has been staying for two weeks, bringing an uplifting energy just departed.
Again I am reminded how everyone that comes into our lives, always brings experiences and realizations in a manner that fits our current needs and states of being. They are a reflection of our inner world. Our guru's and challenges. 

Spending time in the beautiful nature here calms me down. Takes me away from my expectations of what is to come, an hour, a week, a month from now. 
Nature embraces me and knows, that nothing of this exists yet. 
To make me see this the birds chirp a little louder, and the winds bites a little harder, sun shines a bit brighter.
It's like they are saying "come back to the beauty of this moment, Italy is not going anywhere"

9.24.2014

Word

you must blend your dreams with your actions, love with honour, hope with effort.

9.22.2014

Day after ayahuaca


My life will never be the old same. 
Mainly because it's impossible. The only constant is change.
BUT.
This is amazing.
New visions.
Future hopes, and courage to follow a different path than what I thought I was endowed to do. 
I feel in connection with myself.
I leave germany tomorrow or the day after tomorrow to god knows where, and it feels frightening as FUCK. I'm so grateful for this life. Now I'm gonna get out of bed and walk in nature. 
Hopefully I will post before leaving without knowing when I will have internet again. 

Ayahuasca

My world has been turned upside up. 

I'm a child of the universe. The universe is a child of me.
I've been here before and I'll be here again.
Part of the women and part of the men.
I'm here to release all of my fear. Come to peace with my relations, and discover what it means to be alive. Give up my attachments and give up my confusion, and guide the world to a place that is beyond all illusion.
I've seen the beautiful geometry that surrounds all of our hearts.
We are the group of one. Violence ends where love begins.
I now choose to actively and consciously dream this dream of life. Filled with light and darkness, but first of all I choose this life to be governed by my souls desires. In alignment with the need for a global tribe of color people. I will rise with others and create this new and old way of nature. I put my life in the service of light. This polarized reality serves me to expand my physical senses beyond the 3. dimensional. I've seen past lives, I've given birth to hundreds of children, and I will give birth to a hundred more. Now I'm giving birth to a new paradigm within myself, slowly, gently opening it outwards to shine my light, for the betterment of all.
This energy that governs everything is available always, and it will guide me by showing me my path in a glorious and loving way. 
I'm an infinite source of cosmic intelligence, the waves of the sea, the orbit of the planet, the elements of nature. fire, earth, air and water
I believe in the potential of humans and I believe in our return to Lemuria. 
My lives are a perfectly weaved picture puzzled pattern doors to infinity. 
I have nothing more than gratitude and awe striking faith in the ways of mother universe. 

I give in and I let the evolution take place within in my heart.


My highest goal in this life is to feed the world with new uniting ways.
This is where the road of life turns upward in a spiraling curve and comes back down into the earth with the bright light of love. Love is the best teacher.

I thank the medicine of life.

9.21.2014


Once, we where sleeping with the grand animals of prehistory.
telepathically counseling. 
Living in unison with the glorious beings of spirit.
We where healers of their wounds, and they provided warmth.
When the earth would come to be ruled by ice, the animals sacrificed themselves for our nutrition and survival.  We have forgotten their love, in the insanity of meat consumption. 
When will we return?

watch and weep my friends


9.16.2014

Germany day 29



Last week in Germany.
Ayahuasca diet until weekend: No dairy, no salt, no spices. Only vegetables.
Building a new cover to a yurt. 
Tough work.
Taking long walks. Meditating.
Beautiful hot, sunny weather. 
Cried tears of release at the sharing-talk yesterday with the other volunteers.
It felt so good to speak my heart.

New stuff to put into your head.

http://themindunleashed.org/2014/07/10-mind-blowing-theories-will-change-perception-world.html

9.14.2014

New sketch.


This is a new dream I had. A dream of being blown away like sand in the desert.

Rediscovered one of my short films from last year.


Title: "A celebration to secrecy"
(In danish "En hyldest til hemmeligheden")

Great documentary on Ayurveda.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X7tW6NRxYNw

A simple season song

video

From me to you.

Sunday thoughts


The way you live your life, reflects what you believe in. 

What you eat, how your body functions, how you walk and talk, how you treat other people, what you buy, your relationships, how you treat nature, your hobby's, your job, your timetable, your dreams, your sense of worth, how you feel, how you connect to spirit, how you sleep, your wardrobe, where you live, the way you assert your power, the way you contribute to others and your own happiness, how you connect to your human body to your true essence: the soul, the way you breathe, which words you use, your priorities.

Everything.

So what do you believe in?
Are you the best you can be for yourself?
Do you act accordingly to your heart and souls desires?
Do you feel and speak your mind openly to the people around you?
Are you holding grudges towards yourself or others?
Are you holding onto old fears and traumas?
Are you nursing your sense of self-love in any way?
Do you think loving thoughts towards other living beings and yourself?
Do you spend time in nature?
Do you breathe deep?
Do you believe you are worthy of a good life?
Do you believe you are beautiful and kind?
Do you believe yourself to be worthy of a functioning, healthy body?
- if so, do you eat healthy nourishing food, and do you feel nourished?
Do you believe yourself to be an infinite soul connected to everything?

- I love you. I really do.





9.13.2014

Old letters to myself.

" Letter to a friend"
 A letter to my 40 year old self, written one year ago in 2013, now rediscovered. 


Hello.
I hope the neck pain is gone, and you got love around you.
I hope you keep in mind that your friends is important, even though they annoy you, and you can't sometimes understand why you are friends with them.
I hope you find yourself in a state of happiness, no matter what you did with your life, where you are, who you are with, what you do.
I hope you did something worthy of your abilities, and I hope the world, in some way, benefits from your presence. I hope you do what you love, and I hope you don't let others tell you what is right for you. I hope you follow your heart and that you trust your intuition.
And I hope you are not sitting around, waiting for something to happen.

what to do:
Love makes the world go around, and I hope you have told the ones you love, that you love them.
Because your affections is not obvious to the world around you, you might need to reflect your thoughts into words. People can't read your mind. Have patience with them instead of shutting them off. Do not show off. Be humble. Just because someone is not following you every time you open your mouth, does not mean they are not worthy of your time.
I hope you have taken the risk of finding someone you care about, instead of thinking about it.
visualise. Listen to others, but do not lose yourself in others sorrow.
Try always to do your best, even though you get tired.
Sometimes just shut up and observe. Be open.
Don't drink and smoke when you don't feel like it. Do cold showers, you feel good afterwards, and it clears your head. Do short, impulsive traveling. Go spend time in glorious nature.
Own as few unimportant things as physically possible. Talk to strangers.
Choose to be kind, always, to everyone.
Try not to be a pessimist. Use your optimism, yet stay realistic, but dream big, and react to your dreams. Don't waste your "free time".
Enjoy sleeping, eating, walking, bathing, bike riding, talking, reading, smiling, drinking, love.

sincerely
18 year old me,
to
40 year old me.

Days of love


What should I speak of, if not love?
Is it not the only truth?
Love knows no fear.
My walls turning into trees.
In this state I am the multiverse of the 13th dimension.
In your arms.
In the arms of everything.

Just let me receive love.

_______________________________________________________________

We sleep in unison. Together. like a fetus in a womb.
I wake. hardly any light. Window cracked open. The crisp air in my lungs.
You are warm against my back, my legs.
"Happiness never real, if not shared."
I kiss the air above your eyes, to not wake you.

I go to the garden in the morning and pluck mint from the moist ground.
Wearing only rubber boots.
The sun rising, my pale skin glowing orange, my eyes squinting from the blinding light.
The smell of damp moss and smoke.

The house is singing the song of wear.
The quacking of the cold wooden floor, covered in weaved carpets of burgundy.
The kettle screaming.

I go outside to keep the red, violet, orange sky company, and sit down on a cleaved piece of wood. I drink the mint water and burn in the new day light.
The music being birds talking.

Your hand on my shoulder, warm, light.
stroking my shoulder down my hands.
You sit the wet grass beside me, your head in my lap.
You breath slowly, calmly.
I breathe slowly, calmly.

The sky is turning blue, and we are getting older.
The smell of mature apples and hyacinths is creating beautiful sounds in the atoms around us.
Not remembering anything. Just being and becoming what already is.

I stand and walk and you follow. Down to the river with the clear water. Fish, plants and rocks visible watching down. The water is cold. cleansing the life of the night away from our mental and physical bodies. from top to toe. We laugh. The shock of the cold is thrilling. Our skins turns red, and then warm.

Grasping my hand we walk each other back. Living organisms all around.

These are simple days of love.
We eat, sleep, discover, sing, paint, walk, talk, learn, teach, write love and live.

Nothing but this is real.
So why should I speak of fear, hatred, misfortune, illusion yearning, and envy, when this is reality?


(January 2013 - Nanna Mynte)

9.12.2014

Germany day 25



Germany day 25

I feel like sharing a smile since there is so much to be grateful for.
These tiny plum miracles from the garden. 
The smell of the forest and the glorious pumpkins growing which will be on the menu for lunch.
My moon cycle ended this morning, and it has been a sensitive time filled emotional turmoil.
The full moon in pisces has effected my process deeply and brought up deep wounds and old self-hatred. Doing kundalini meditation has helped me to be more in connection with myself.
Two of the volunteers, whom I have had a great time with are leaving today, but it is actually nice having people come and go, to remind me to enjoy the present moment. 
Future plans are catching up on me slowly.
So much exciting to come. 
Also the ayahuasca ceremony is in EXACTLY one week from now. 
I feel ready and open.

Much love.

9.11.2014

Germany day 24







Germany day 24

Gentle morning. 
I really like waking up in the middle of Nature now that I sleep in the van. 
Peeing on the compost toilet and smelling the humid moss. 
Long walk in the valleys. Hills and forests. 
Soft yellow light from the sun behind the greyblue sky. 
Damp hair from the warm shower I took this morning. 
Painting in Silence in the house. 
I feel good. 

9.10.2014